16/03/09..guess it's the right way..

The 1st day of our march holiday is today(monday)..a glumy day..when time reaches early evening..heavy down pour..the hold day was fine..after my house work..i spent most of my time smsing cause i don have the mood 4 studies..n suddenly..my ph msg tone rang..n it was beh beh..she said tat she still can't accept tat me n zi kuan is togethere..n she will not forgive us..n even time past..she's till nt goin 2 forgive us..n will remamber wat v have done 2 her..the 1 which reali hurt me most is tat..she said tat she will pretand tat she doesn't even knw me!!!

In my heart deeply, i understand tat she is mad at me..but..come 2 think of it..i reali doesn't understand..y can't she accept it???does tis reali matter so much 2 her???wat is she so caring about???all my other fren including my sis is telling me tat i'm not the 1 having problem..she is the 1 which is have problem..because she oredi have a new bf n she still cares about her ex with her bestfren..tis is non-sens..tat's wat they told me..I don really agree with them at 1st..but..come 2 think of it..they are right..Even if i told her in the 1st place..i think the ending will b the same..because from the start she can't even accept it..

And this fact I think tat it is veri true...if she reali takes me as her best fren..she won't b mad at me..she will b hapi 4 me..because i found my partner..even thought tat tis partner is her ex..she will b still hapi 4 me..because she knw tis guy better thn my other frenz..N not saying things like hate us..can't accept it..think tat v can't b frenz again...n others word tat hurt my feeling..this is not a act of a best fren!!!Because of the act..she is nt oni hurting me n her ownself..n oso the 2 boys tat r beside us..becuase of her act..she made me n zi kuan have nt been hapi for a few days..both of us strugle it is matter untill v r so tired tat v doesn't even care 2 bother...
Ah bi(her new bf)is the person who is the most无故..he must b reali veri sad..y is his gf caring so much about her ex?? Y can't she think about other ppl tat she is hurting..she oni thinks tat she is the only 1 which is hurt..but come 2 think of it..the actual fact is tat she is hurting everyone..the 4 of us!!!!

To tell the truth..i'm reali tired of thinking wat she think's about me..because in this matter..I finally knw tat in her heart she isn't my real best fren..a real best fren won't do all this..
So..from now..i'll still talk 2 her if she talks 2 me..if she don..maybe i won't talk 2 her either..it's doesn't really matter..cause i knw tat..which fren of mine treats me good from the heart...

Reali hope tat she knw's tat she's nt the oni 1 who is hurt..she has oso done damaged on me..zi kuan n her bf now..our damaged is all from her words n act!!!!